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little wonders
By rob thomas

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don’t you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don’t mind
if it’s me you need to turn to
we’ll get by,
it’s the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain

--> just love the message of this song...

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Just droppin by to say hi. Im here in bacolod for a docu on reporter's notebook. Pls do watch it this tuesday nyt (well,make that wednesday am) after saksi.

Of course, my trip wont be complete without visiting my girlfriend (issue?!), sophia - now a native of bacolod.ü seeing her just made me realize i missed her a lot. So to catch up, she spent the night at the hotel where i checked in. Distance really aint a hindrance for good friends. Really blessed to have her. We chatted till wee hourr. I guess we'll do the same tonight since i'll be leaving tomorrow. Haay..back to manila...

friends (soft, armi, etc)-- its not what you think! just read on.

busy...busy...busy -- reason why my journal's dusty and rusty.

but i need not explain further, i know you know what i mean. though, im pretty jealous of busy people who still manage to update their journals.

nyways, a lot happened to me since i last visited my blog. can't remember 'em all but i would like to jot those unforgettable ones soon, if i'll have time though.

my life's kinda routinary right now. i go to work, go home after, then wake up the next day to go to work again. the cycle just doesn't stop except for my days off (kahit alipin nagde-day off no?!hahaha!).

but i'm happy. yes i am a Happy Person now. maybe i just found my way back to love. hahaha! (parang narinig ko na to sa music and lyrics?) but you read it right. i love MYSELF again.

months ago, i sort of lost track of where to go. blamed myself too much. heartaches and failures pushed me almost to the limit.
but before reaching the dead end --
i forced myself to wake up and move on with life with my head up.

it's happy to be happy.

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will talaga ni Lord na broad comm yung kunin ko noh?:)

tagal kong nawala.

dami nangyari. pero minsan kailangan mo lang tumahimik para makapag-isip ano dapat gawin sa buhay.

salamat nga pala sa mga kaibigan ko na laging nanjan para ako'y damayan, lalo na nitong christmas season.
1st time kong nawala sa piling ng pamilya sa pasko at bagong taon.

though, i'm still thankful na nakauwi pa rin me kahit super late na.

sabi nga nila ...
there's no place like HOME!:)

grabeh! i'm back...

tagal ko ring nagpahinga sa paglo-log noh? miss niyo ba ako? kasi ako, i miss myself na!

the reason why i haven't written for more than a month kasi BUSY na ang byuti ko!

i never thought na magiging ganito kabusy life ko. super busy na for a month, ni di ko man lang na-experience ang totoong day OFF!

SIR once told me back when i was so frustrated when my day off comes na i should enjoy it coz time will come when i would long for DAY OFFS!

and he was right! ngayon, parang gusto ko ng mag-DAY OFF lagi! tnk gudness, mag-daday off na rin ako today! YAHOO! :)

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sa tagal kong nawala, pati sa love life ko, o mas tama atang crush life o like life, may BAGO na rin!:)

kaso parang di ako masaya kasi naman...
may asawa na naman ung trip kong guy! huhuhu! so hanggang crush lang talaga ako sa kanya! :(

don't worry guys, i'll keep my word! wala na pong ibang level ang gusto kong marating sa bago kong crush!

though, i must admit na kinikilig ako everytime nagkakasama kami! :)

about my SIR crush, like ko pa rin siya. the thing is...
i'm starting to accept the fact na hanggang crush lang din ako sa kanya.

di pa rin kasi niya me nakikita eh!:(

but as the famous saying goes, LOOK AT THE BRIGHTER SIDE OF LIFE...
and so i am!

iniisip ko na lang, baka nga he came in my life just to assure that my ideal man exists.
he might not be the ONE but i'm sure of one thing...
he broght and still brings smile in my face without doing anything at all! :)

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

sa lahat ng nag-bigay panahon para bigyan ako ng advise, isang masigabong palakpakan para sa inyo! :)

seriously, thank you for all your advices. :)

i already accepted THE offer. that's not the good news (though i also consider it to be 1).

and now, the GOOD NEWS...

i can keep my job!

my boss and i talked last monday. she told me i would remain as a reporter.
the documentarist offer was more of a training for me to hone my skills.
therefore, i would be having 2 jobs - a segment producer and a reporter.

hmmm...i still don't know how to balance my schedule. but, i'm optimistic bout my new work. :)
actually, i'll be starting this sunday (no! today effective na pala since i already reserved us a vehicle for sunday's shoot! hehe!).

THE documentarist and his staff welcomed me last night with a dinner. it was sweet of them. as THE documentarist said, i would be the 1st major change in his segment staff since they have worked together for more than 2 yrs now. so pressure! pressure! hope i can live up to his expectations and of course, my own expectations.

as i understand my boss, i won't have any increase in my paycheck. but it doesn't matter for now. i'll still be testing the waters pa naman. i'll see 1st if the load of my job doesn't change as a reporter, then that would be the time for me to appeal about my pay. (tsaka di naman papayag si LORD na maalipin ako for nothing, right? :))

LORD thanks so much for everything. :)

naranasan niyo na bang maiyak habang pinakikinggan ang isang kanta tungkol sa pag-ibig?
dahil ba minsa'y nadama niyo na ang ligaya o di kaya'y pighating nilalarawan ng umaawit?

masarap isiping kahit sa saliw ng musika ay nabubuhay ang mga alaalang nais balikan o kahit ang nakaraang akala'y binaon na ng panahon.

masaya sana kung ganoon, pero...
paano kung ang luha'y di napigilang tumulo dahil napagtanto mong ni minsan, hindi pa pinadama sa iyo ang wagas na pag-ibig na tinutukoy ng kumakanta?

a while ago, i was offered a new job. i was really overwhelmed - hearing it right from THE documentarist himself.

 

he asked me to produce him. of course, i was very pleased and very honored. not only would i be producing one of his segments that i love dearly, i would also be trained by him. i can't hide the smile from my heart, BUT...

a thought came right bulging inside my head so i asked him...

"does that mean sir i would have to leave my current job?"

he answered, "yes."

 

right then and there, i was in a dilemma. questions were ringing from both sides of my ears.

how can i leave the job i dreamed of?

can i simply turn away from my career when everything seems to be in place?

how can i also turn down a great offer?

is the job he's offering me is the ONE for me?

 

having sensed my uneasiness when the smile on my face slowly faded, THE documentarist told me that he understands that it would be hard for anyone working in front of the camera to just hide behind it. so he'll give me time to think it through.

 

when i was alone (though with a friend and later, even a crowd and yet i still felt all alone), i digested his words about working behind the camera. not that i don't enjoy working in front of it (coz it does give one a feeling of credibility of a factual story teller). the thing is...

i never considered that factor.

 

galantly - or to put it bluntly, PLASTIC as it may sound, it doesn't matter if i work in front or behind the camera as long as i know i'm enjoying the job. and for sure, i would also enjoy being his producer (if i accepted his offer) coz aside from the perks i mentioned above, i would have the opportunity to travel around the country - which is one of my dreams.

 

then again, i could also travel with my current job. though, i just have to be patient.

 

so i was torn again.

 

what really bothers me leaving my current job is the PEOPLE i have learned to love (and even hate, though not that seriously) - the cameramen, the assistants, the desk people, the senior and junior reporters, my fellow newbees, the production staff, the editors and even the bosses.

 

if i would take the offer, i would also have to take the fact that i will be seeing less the men and women i worked, enjoyed, talked, laughed, and even cried with. for even just more than 4 months being with them, i already built a foundation strong enough (i think) to instantly destroy. 

 

whew!:(

 

i told a friend, she told me to think it through and decipher which of the two jobs i love more.

 

then i shared my dilemma with my mom. she asked me also to weigh the two. more importantly, she advised me to share it with HIM and ask for guidance.

 

not an hour passed, i think GOD already extended a helping hand.

 

i asked SIR.

he didn't tell me to think of it. he said, if he was to be asked, he would decline the offer. his reason was it would be like stepping down the ladder instead of climbing up. he told me to enjoy first my job. if i got tired of it (which i doubt i will in the near future), then i could choose to produce.

 

his words made it a bit easier for me decide.

 

obviously, my current job weighs more now than THE offer.

 

still, i would not decide right away. i have to take time to think things over.

 

YOU, what do you think? will i or will i not take it?

 

mr. a and i went out again last night. but it was not a second date anymore!

actually, i won't even call the first night out with him as a date, well you can call it a friendly date if you want but it was just it - a platonic meeting.

meeting mr. a was like going out with a long lost friend.

the nice thing was, he just felt that way too (he told me last night while out with his friend at bagaberde).

we'll meet again tomorrow (hopefully if my sched would permit) and i think i just found a very good company in him.

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remember my teacher crush?
well, he's back in the network! :)

i'd be working with, rather FOR him (since he'll be one of my bosses) and i just wanna say that i'm as happy as he said he was with his transfer. working for him was sort of a dream come true. not that i want to see him everyday coz he's my crush, but i just want to know how it feels like working with an ex-teacher whom i had a really big crush on.

and to complete the happiness...

last saturday, we went out along with my fellow officemates - the newbees whom he wants to get acquianted with.

as expected, i was all smiles since it was the first time i joked around with him.

but my heart beat double time when he said he was really proud of me. all along, i thought he never notices me and my efforts back in school and even in the business i entered.

highlight was...

alone in his car while he was driving me home, he repeated his complement. that moment, i said i could already die. but i choose to reconsider. i know there would still be lots of times i could share a moment with the man i really look up to back in college as a great professor and a dedicated journalist.

he thanked me for the night. i thanked him too...

...but i know i could never thank him that much for the inspiration he gave me. :)

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i just miss my sir crush in the office...
actually, i just chatted with him. but then i still miss him.

when will i miss him no more?

before the so-called-date:

mr.A and i met each other just once in a "travel agency" . my officemate introduced us. the three of us chatted for a few minutes before saying bye!

then, last week he called on our office phone asking for the sched of i-wit docufest. at first, i didnt recognize his voice and even his name coz i never thought we'd interact again.

came monday, he asked me out for coffee. i immediately agreed thinking that was the first time i was asked out by someone i met just once. also, i was really looking for some time out from my weird affection for my senior - the one i really had a big crush and whom i lovingly call SIR! 

mr. A and i then scheduled our coffee affair on weds 8pm. but things got a little rough for me coz i was aked to go on duty - 4pm to 12mn.

but we were (or should i say - I was because of peer pressure) really determined to make our "coffee date" a reality. so, we met after my job at 12mn.

during the "date":

he was already seated in a couch when i arrived.

of course, i thought it would be awkward for us to just chat and act that we really know each other.

amazingly, talking with him went effortlessly. we talked about his life, my life, my work, his work, my officemate who introduced us, music, our ex's, our stupidity when we fall in love, his crush, my crush, how God worked in our lives, and almost everything that pops out of our head.

next thing we know, it was already past 5am. time to go home. time to say, "see you again. thanks!"

i'd describe the night/morning with just a word: GREAT!

after the date:

i got home minutes before 6am. i texted him i was home. he replied. he teased me to my crush, Sir. i returned the favor and teased him to his crush, my friend and officemate. then i said gud nyt. he said good night.

the end... OOOPS!

not yet!

around 4pm, he texted me saying he'll visit the office. i said later coz i was still out in the field working. he updated me with his day's plan. i shared mine as well. it went on like this.

then just minutes ago, he said he was going to pampanga. he invited me. i declined the offer coz i still have work tomorrow. i then said good night and God bless their (he's with friends) trip.

was that the end?

NO!

the date was just a start of a new friendship.